happy 1st birthday abner lee!
Monday, September 21, 2015
Monday, August 31, 2015
being a joy.
biting out of love.
flapping his arms.
being the best brother ever.
Wednesday, August 5, 2015
smashing his face into blankets.
making noise with toys. banging hammers against the floor.
playing in his own room.
Sunday, July 26, 2015
she is a mess.
she is the best 'nuggler.
she is passionate...or just stubborn and dramatic.
she loves to love on abner.
she loves to show him that she is bigger.
her prayers are awesome.
her eyes are killer.
her laugh even more so.
she moves at her own pace...her very own, very slow, pace. my little duck always trailing behind.
she is day time potty trained, and goes without being prompted!
this girl can eat, and eat, and eat.
she tries hard to sing her abcs.
she can count to 15...even though i never worked with her.
she knows the colors of the rainbow...also not my doing!
she may be a bigger klutz than me.
she is still a mama's girl. on long drives it's torture that i can't hold her. "i need you! i 'nuggle you!"
but daddy is okay too.
nana is way up there on her list.
sometimes she just needs a hand to hold, an arm to lean on, a leg to grab...physical touch is her thing.
she is learning the ways of the world...especially when daddy is around.
some days it is tough.
i feel like she is older than she is, but i know that is eliza's influence.
she talks a ton and is as crazy as can be...until people come over, or we go somewhere.
she puts on a big front.
(thanks aunt corinne for this shot!)
i feel like songs will be written about her.
she is wild, she is sweet, she is stubborn, she is moody, she is hilarious, she is dorky, she is everything.
Wednesday, July 1, 2015
going from sitting to crawling to sitting again.
standing against furniture.
screaming like he is in a lot of pain when he wants to nurse.
laughing at his sisters.
exploring the house.
banging toys against the floor, a chair, the table.
water...baths or swimming.
hanging out with daddy.
man this is getting harder and harder. he is keeping us so busy, but i also think i just want to prolong his first year. i cannot believe how old he is getting. dude has a ton of teeth. he weighs 21 pounds. as i lug him around it's hard to remember my little 36 weeker. he wants to go so bad. he is all over the place, and trying to cruise around furniture. active guy, but still as sweet as can be! he's happy 90% of the time. so quiet and content. this month was a little rougher though, getting 4 top teeth at once will do that you. extra snuggles and tickles help ease the pain. now, if we could just find a way to stop him from getting too big!
Friday, May 29, 2015
crazy. crazy. crazy.
sucking his fingers.
standing up. don't you dare try to make him sit.
finding the smallest speck on the floor and going for it.
playing with toys.
time with daddy.
smiling at his sisters.
being happy. "does he ever cry?"
complaining about teeth. "yes, yes he does."
Thursday, May 28, 2015
me - "excuse me?"
eliza - "i don't like the white sox."
me - "that's not ok."
eliza - "what...i just like the bears and colts!"
me - "well, that is football. you can still like the white sox."
eliza - "i just don't like them."
nana - "what are you? a cubs fan?!"
eliza - "oooh! that sounds pretty! i like the cubs!"
me - "just go. get out of my house!"
eliza - "why?"
me - "you can't like them. they are a horrible team!"
eliza (growing concerned) - "why? what do they do?"
me - "THEY LOSE!"
it took a phone call to uncle luke, but we got her straightened out. "well, i like them...i just don't love them!"
james told her just to say she doesn't like baseball. we can accept that. not liking the sox? that requires an intervention.
also, she requested that abner wear his baseball shirt today. so fitting for our home baby!
Tuesday, May 5, 2015
and i took the picture, then we left for a week. so here it, finally, is...
trying to crawl.
standing...all. the. time. (with assistance)
sucking his thumb.
getting his head scratched.
seriously...this kid is awesome. he had a few more ear infections, that gave us a bit of a run, but overall he is one happy kid. i have said he's the best of both worlds. eliza hated snuggles, hattie couldn't get enough, he is cool one way or another. "oh! we get to snuggle? that's cool." "oh. you can't hold me right now...i'm fine with that too." mellow. we started exploring with food. not eating a whole lot yet, but enjoying some here and there. he grew his first two teeth. i was not ready for that goofy gummy grin to disappear! we lowered his crib this month, and removed the bumper. that made for some silly sleeps. it also gives the girls a chance to peek at him when they wake up in the morning. he puts up with being on the inside of the bars pretty well while they bounce around making faces. it is still all about abner around here. guess that is standard for the baby of the family. we are all just enamored with this boy of ours!
Monday, April 13, 2015
ninja turgles...especially michelangelo.
books and comic books (tmnt and mlp)
coloring, drawing, painting, cutting, gluing.
giving gifts to people. like...all. the. time.
helping with laundry, and housework, and mowing with daddy.
hattie bugging her.
getting dirty, unless she has "messy clothes" on.
"falling down jeans"
and apparently, fancy nancy. she told me today when i asked if we could finish one of her chapter books. i tried not to cry.
favorite recent thoughts, that show how big of a heart she has...
"i want to go back to korea someday so we can show hattie."
"i like when abner smiles at me, because it makes me feel happy inside."
Wednesday, April 1, 2015
at least today.
if you know eliza, you know that cold blanket is always around. we've had it since before she was born, and she latched on around 6 months. it's been everywhere. we had a backup (double baby shower, and enola didn't get attached to hers) but eliza could tell the difference. (hattie's is bumpy of course, aka the fabric has pills) so now hattie has it...because she has to be like eliza and no other blanket would do.
Saturday, March 28, 2015
half a year. wow.
sucking his fingers.
sleeping on his tummy.
showers and baths.
trying to inch around.
Wednesday, March 4, 2015
and i had the collage all ready to go, cut out his 5, and forgot to bring his blanket, when we left for a week, to take his picture!
sleeping on his tummy.
acting like a big kid.
drumming on this tummy.
his woobie. (new name for his lovey. funny story with that!)
shoving his hands in his mouth.
sucking his fingers.
watching his sisters.
holding on to things.
sitting and standing up.
mama being his paci.
Tuesday, February 10, 2015
hattie's hair was amazing from day one. she also had one curl that i said i could write a whole love letter to.
abner came out with hair that made me think "is he really ours?" then smiled because i thought the same about delia and her hair.
cradle cap hit hard and i whimpered over the clumps that i combed out while dousing him in coconut oil. he has lost so much.
and yet, he has a tuft.
something so simple causes so many emotions with this crazy (in love) mama.
he stands in my lap.
he wants to see the world.
he wiggles and squirms.
and then his chubby little legs tire.
i turn him around and he still wants to stand.
except now he leans against me.
my hair brushes his cheek.
he smiles and shrieks.
rubs his eyes.
because he is oh, so, so tired.
then he leans in.
he looks down, and it happens.
he nuzzles around and around, pops back up.
and there it is.
my broken heart explodes.
broken, because i know this moment is fleeting.
i want to soak it all up.
yet my mind wanders to far (far, far) off places.
i worry about what to do with a boy and having regular haircuts.
it's so foreign.
then i think about his hair getting fluffed after hitting a home run.
or striking out.
i wonder what kind of hats he will wear over that hair.
will he even like baseball?
will he be a country boy?
my heart sinks a little.
will he wear a beret like his daddy?
an army cap?
ever since he was born, since finding out he was a he, i have a new respect for my mother in law.
i cannot imagine seeing my little boy go and do what hers did.
how hard that must have been.
and there i go, getting ahead, worrying about the future.
instead of now.
now i will go sniff that baby fresh hair.
i will nuzzle in.
and thank God that he let me be this boy's mama.
Tuesday, January 27, 2015
it's no secret that i've changed since first becoming a mama. a lot changed after delia. a lot of me changed. some good, some bad. in a lot of ways my preferences are the same, but in so many ways i have switched to survival mode, what works, what is best for us, what makes them happy, what keeps me sane. especially now, going through these baby stages for the third time, i just have to stop and laugh. i am sure i will be adding to this list. here are just two from the last few days...
first child (that had very limited tv the first few years) sings her version of "angels we have heard on high"
third child hears the "glooooooooooooria" part and sings "ah ah my pony! my pony"
first child gets cute outfits when visiting the doctor.
fourth child gets a onesie and babylegs because mama knows she can have baby dressed, they can get their thighs poked, and she can get out of there asap!
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Monday, January 26, 2015
dude just keeps growing and growing.
he also gets cooler and cooler.
being a mellow baby.
baths and showers.
sucking on his hands.
sucking on his blanket.
cooing, gurgling and letting out little shrieks.
sleeping on his tummy.
fun month with abner's first Christmas. the start to his (or my) bow tie obsession. his first story time that wasn't for his sisters. becoming more crunchy and sporting his amber necklace. can't start it soon enough, i'm sure he will have teeth before we know it! one not so fun thing, this month he got his first double ear infection. discovered that at his well baby check. :( abner continues to be awesome. his sisters may steal some of his time, but he is laid back enough that if i need to set him down he will either be content to "play" or fall asleep. (most of the time...he does have his needy moments) i told james he is the best of both worlds. one girl would not be held or rocked and the other couldn't be put down, if he gets snuggles, that's cool...if not, he is okay too! continuing to thank God for the blessing that abner is. we just eat him up daily, and love to love on our boy. he is just starting to really respond to the girls and it melts this mama's heart time and time again.
Friday, January 16, 2015
if eliza can read. words or minds.
seriously...it's freaky. it's happened many times before, but here are the latest ones.
she randomly asked me "what if you have a baby when abner is still a baby?"
a week later we were pulling on a wishbone and as we made our wishes i thought "i hope we have another baby...wait! no i don't...just give me peace one way or another."
we pull. i win. she asks "did you wish for a baby?"
my friend said she is so intuitive. many times i wonder if she is really 5, or one of my friends.
after that james emailed me a video of the app of anna giving birth (um. what?)
i told him i'd have to watch the video when she wasn't standing right over my shoulder.
then i told him about the whole wishbone thing.
as i was typing she asked "why hasn't your wish come true yet?"
she always wants to make cards to send to friends.
yesterday, not long after i read about glitter bombs, she cut up some paper, brought me a card and said "can we put this in the card? so when enola opens it it will just fall out, and it will be really fun and funny."
stuff like this happens all the time. i am excited for her to learn to read, but not sure i am prepared for it.
also...get out of my head.
Wednesday, January 14, 2015
Monday, January 12, 2015
hattie has been fighting naps and bedtime lately.
it's been rough for all of us.
today i made sure all things that could get her in trouble were out of their room. then i pulled the whole "you don't have to nap, but you need to have some quiet time" trick.
she cried a little, but then was quiet, for over an hour.
then from the playroom eliza said "is quiet time over?"
"well, hattie just wants me to open the door."
"don't do it."
then through the vents i hear "ziza, hep pee" (eliza, help please) over and over.
"she's just sitting by the door mama!"
and this is why it will be okay if hattie never learns to open doors.
fast forward a bit. i go upstairs while they are watching frozen, to see what damage she did during quiet time.
hold my breath, walk into their room, not a thing is out of place. the covers on her bed aren't even messed up. everything is how i left it.
she really did just sit next to that door for over an hour.
fast forward even more. bedtime comes. bedtime screams come. i go. to try and enjoy a few minutes before abner gets mad.
eliza comes back out "can you lay with me mama?"
"is your sister asleep?"
i go up there and see this...
"why does sister bear throw fits at nap and bedtime?"
"i don't know mama."
"probably because she is almost two. have you heard of the terrible twos?"
"she is still a baby in some ways, but she wants to be a big girl. she gets frustrated when we can't understand what she wants. she doesn't have all of her words yet. wouldn't that be frustrating if people didn't understand you?"
deep breaths, pats on my shoulder, some whispers, silence.
"you are the best big sister."
"you are the best big mama."
"mama, sometimes, on tv, i just hear 'nationwide is on my side.'"
"aaaaand it's time for me to go."
Wednesday, January 7, 2015
over the summer i asked eliza what kind of birthday she wanted. i also informed her once she picked, that was it. no switching the day after i start buying things like last year! she probably would have switched after being introduced to ninja turtles at her cousin's birthday. girl became obsessed with them. but her first choice...
"a star birthday!"
i had all these visions of pale pink, gold, shimmery stars. i thought oooh, this could be cute!
then she chimed in some more "RAINBOW stars."
this will probably be her last "big" birthday party, so i wanted to make it fun! i told her we'd do parties until 5, and from then on she could pick something fun to do, and invite a friend or two. we'll still have cake and presents, just at dinner on her birthday, and whatever family wants to be with her on her day, can be there. cannot believe my first baby turned FIVE!
over the summer she had her first encounter with a pinata. she made sure to let me know she wanted one at her party, over and over again. figuring i wouldn't be able to find a rainbow star one, i decided she would get a mama made one. it was actually really easy, and fun to do! the hardest part was probably hushing up my perfectionist side, and not worrying about a perfect star shape. although, i did find a nice tip on how to make a huge star. make a pencil and string compass. draw a huge circle. then think of it like a clock, and mark the 12, 24, 36, 48, and 60 minutes. those are the points of your star.
i wanted to make a game out of it too. we just so happened to have 6 little party guests. eliza had decorated favor bags, and inside i placed one star, each bag had a different color. we let them randomly choose. then they gathered on the porch and that was the beginning of the rainbow path. before the party the grandmas had taken yarn and ran all over the yard with it. up and over, around and under, all over. each kid had a wooden star that i had painted in their color. james drilled a hole in it, and they were supposed to run it along their color string and find the pinata at the end. it didn't work as well as i had imagined. i needed to give better directions to the grandmas, but our internet was out all day, and i couldn't show them what sparked the idea. so instead of nicely sliding along, it was a slow, tangled mess. all except for enola, she was first and got through before the tangles occured! it was still fun though, and i am tempted to try it again, maybe on st. patrick's day?
also, funny side note, i warned my sister-in-law and friend about how this was going down. having girls too, we thought it would be a good idea to prepare them about not getting to pick a color. the whole "you get what you get and you don't throw a fit" thing. not everyone was going to get pink. and funny enough, reese, the only boy, was the one that ended up with pink. ha!