Wednesday, October 26, 2011

all in His plan.

at my 6 week postpartum appointment my doctor said "and do we want to talk about birth control?"

i smiled and said "nope."

she smiled back and said "well, i'm supposed to tell you in situations like this that you should wait 6 months. that being said...you are adults and you are going to do whatever you want anyway."

i nodded and said "yep. we'll leave it up to Him. we were told to wait three months after the miscarriage and got pregnant that first cycle and that turned out pretty good for us." (thinking of our crazy 2 year old at home)

so...we put it in His hands.

then i got tired. really tired. and i wondered. and i peed on a stick.

and we saw two pink lines.

one faint, but it was there.

i'm shocked. excited. terrified.

we have always shared as soon as we find out. i figure we would tell people if we lost the baby anyway, this way we have more people praying for us.

so pray. pray. pray. pray.

i also got to thinking how crazy it is. with baby, it was one cycle. with eliza it was one cycle. with this one, one cycle.

when i hoped to be pregnant again (before delia) i assumed it would happen right away. that was the pattern thus far.

i wanted 2 under 2. my whole life that is what i dreamed of. kids close in age.

james had to leave and be in the field for those important ;) days.

and God said. "in My time."

then i wanted to be pregnant asap.

and He said. "in My time."

then it happened, but God still had other plans.

the family i had in my head? forever changed.

God sure showed me Who is in control though.

He had a plan for delia. her short life has changed lives. she needed to be. we needed her.

i have to continue to trust.

no matter what the outcome.

i hope she's up there sporting her big sister shirt.

18 comments:

tristan said...

shel. we love you guys dearly and will be praying as you make your way along His path. we know God has a beautiful plan for you. more beautiful than the love you have experienced thus far...
<3

scribbler_kate said...

God bless you. You spellbind me. Your writing, your artfulness, the way you keep making ... beautiful art, smiles and prayers to pass along. Praying. And loving.

jackie said...

So excited for you, Shel! Praying for you, and I hope Delia is sporting her big sister shirt as well! :) Hugs and love to you all!

Erin said...

You are so brave and beautiful. Praying for you and this sweet sign of hope.

Melaina25 said...

I'm thinking happy thoughts for a super sticky, super healthy baby xoxo

Ali said...

Congratulations Shel!! I'm going to be praying so hard. You deserve to be a momma to another baby on earth and every child could use good parents like you & James. I'm praying for sure. Love.

sarah said...

what wonderful news! i'll be smothering you & your family in prayer, as always. : ) and thank you again for your willingness to be so transparent & real about life- you're an inspiring, beautiful, & incredible woman i'm so blessed to know! may our Lover hold you close to His side as you walk with Him each & every day. so much love.

Laura said...

I am so so so happy for you. I know we don't know each other real well yet but it will be so nice to have a pregnant buddy at Mom's bible study. I will be praying for you. Congratulations. I have learned with this pregnancy that it really is all up to Him! Laura Otte

Stephanie Hildebrandt said...

We have to continue to trust.

The Farm said...

1 day at a time...gives us 9 months of prayers. Congratulations to you & James. I told your mom...you're as fertile as she was!!

Emily Cook said...

*tears*

Love and many, many prayers for you and brand new bean.

Megan said...

Prayers to the Rockhills! Shel, you are a beautifully talented mother and author! This bean is very blessed to have you :)

Dee Wilcox said...

That is wonderful news. Love and prayers for you guys. :) xo

Anonymous said...

You should hurry up and get your book written before you are chasing two kiddos around ;)
Love you guys and I am so excited for you! Thanks for sharing and showing us His amazing love through your journey! Katy

Kelly Pifer said...

Congratulations on the beginning of a new journey!! So weird how such a joyful trip starts by peeing on a stick, lol!! God will hold you in His hands as He always does, but He will have a little Angel whispering special prayers for her Mom, Dad and big and little sibling in His ear. And so many of us here saying prayers for you too.

Jennie Pie said...

so happy for you! what an incredible blessing. every post you write leaves me with painful goosebumps! you have such a warm soul!!

xoxoxo,

Jen

Steph said...

I found your blog through a mutual friend and it is by far, the most honest blog I've read. Best of luck!

Natalie said...

I am so happy for you and your family, Shel! I just know Delia will be painting the sky for her little brother or sister. Keeping you all in my prayers.

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