Monday, November 7, 2011

the one where i admit i suck as a friend right now.

it's true.

i cannot keep up with life. yet life as a stay at home mom isn't filled with too much it seems. we have lazy days. too many where we stay in our jammies. more than i'd like to confess to.

i used to be great at keeping in touch.

i was the one person who loved snail mail. i always sent letters, and always replied in a timely fashion.

now? i cannot even keep up with e-mails, messages, wall posts, comments, texts.

i feel like i'm sucking at friendship.

i want you to know how much i appreciate each and every single note.

i am so thankful that you took the time to write me/us.

i'm sorry i haven't replied, or if i have it's been short.

i'm trying to stay afloat.

i feel so disorganized. maybe it's because all of our stuff is everywhere still. we are in limbo. i'm still recovering.

i don't know.

i hate excuses. i just feel awful.

people have been so supportive. way more than i could have imagined.

i thank God for each of you.

praying i can turn this slump around sometime.

i hate being behind. having a full inbox. letting people down.

this sucks.

i wonder what the heck is wrong with me, but at the same time i know.

i'm sad. i need time still.

:breathe:

7 comments:

Danielle Johnson Lewis said...

I just want to say I never expect a response for anything I say to you... that is not why I do it! You have touched my life in ways I never thought anyone could and I just want to let you know that. I wish I had half the strength that you have and I think you are an amazing woman! I don't know if I can speak for others but I do not feel ignored or let down... but honored to know you! ♥

Kristin said...

You most certainly do not suck as a friend. You are prioritizing right now. Doing what needs to be done for you, and your family. Take care of yourself first, and you will shine through to everyone else. Do not be so hard on yourself, you have been through more than I could ever imagine going through this year and seeing your positive post and even the negative one's is a sign that you are healing. You are human.

Jennie Pie said...

Dude!!!! You are far from sucky!!! Quite the opposite! You have had so much go on and are remodeling a big ole house!!! You have every excuse to not keep up! And with all the dang avenues of communication these days, it's hard to keep up!!!! We all love you and we know sometimes life happens!!!!! Don't worry about it!!!!

xoxo

And there is nothing wrong with putting your family first and concentrating on getting organized!

Krista M. said...

Your friends know that. Don't worry we are here for you whenever and we will pick right up from there. Until then, know you are loved and take care of yourself and your family. Big hugs!

Danielle said...

Hello. A friend of mine gave me your blog. I know how you feel. I lost our first daughter, Alyssa, in September 2009. If you ever would like to speak, I am here. My husband and I are praying for you and your family. Here is my email jwrdmr02@yahoo.com

Chrissie said...

You could never suck as a friend. That's why you have so many that want to take care of you right now. You'll bounce back, in time.

Natalie said...

Don't be hard on yourself. You are doing exactly what you should be doing to take care of yourself and your family. Everyone who cares for you knows this without a doubt. You are exactly where you should be and doing exactly what you should be doing. <3

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