Sunday, November 20, 2011

another loss.

or so it seems.

started spotting this week. had a postpartum appointment on friday. ended up being a prenatal appointment.

they did an ultrasound and it looks like a blighted ovum (empty gestational sac)

i have to go back on the 29th to see if any growth happened. i might be earlier than i thought, but i doubt it.

i think it's happening.

i told people i'm more annoyed and mad than i am sad.

i don't understand. a friend's prayer, and mine, has been "what the hell God?"

seriously. why? why must we endure another loss? haven't You put us through enough crap?

i'm breaking.

9 comments:

tristan said...

shel, i'm praying for you. stay strong, my friend. <3

Karla Wideman said...

Sending prayers, love and strength your way!! Love you all!!

Erin said...

Oh, Shel. I'm so sorry. I think I just said, what the hell, too. I know life isn't fair, but this is so collosally unfair.

Emily Cook said...

Yet does not one in a heap of ruins stretch out his hand,
and in his disaster cry for help?
...

But when I hoped for good, evil came,
and when I waited for light, darkness came.

My inward parts are in turmoil and never still;
days of affliction come to meet me.
I go about darkened, but not by the sun;
I stand up in the assembly and cry for help.

(Job 30:24-28)

We are sitting in the darkness and crying for help with you Shel.

Samantha Payne said...

Oh Shel. I just cannot imagine what you're going through right now. I'm screaming for you "IT'S NOT FAIR!!!" This sucks and there isn't anything I or anyone else can say to make it better. Just know that I'm praying for you.

Sarah Wilkinson said...
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Sarah Wilkinson said...

praying. so here for you, shel. so here.

Anonymous said...

I've been following your blog since someone posted it on motherhood on facebook a few months ago. I'm definitely praying for you and your family. While it doesn't seem fair, He wouldn't give us anything we can't handle. Lean on Him and your family and friends when you need to. ~AD

Anonymous said...

You don't know me, but I found your blog and have been checking back and following. You are an inspiration, I can imagine you'd rather not be but I just want you to know I love and value your commitment to values, to life, to choosing life, to allowing the Lord to work in you and your trust and faith in Him. He will sustain you, He is good, He does love you and He is holding you. My prayers ar with you - thank you for your unwavering commitment to Him through it all.

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